已連續三十多天沒有放假,無間工作,五勞七傷,眼紅頸腫,去看醫生,才知道是眼角膜發炎和頸部發炎。可惜自由工作者自由得沒有病假,昨天看完醫生後,便到星巴巴繼續寫稿。
Barista小哥看見我準備吃藥,可能以為我是打算以咖啡送藥的烈士,於是主動來問我是否需要水,我因為有自備裝滿暖水的保溫瓶,所以婉拒了,但他最後還是去倒了一杯水給我。
今天一早又到星巴巴開工,Barista小哥拿咖啡給我時又拿了一杯水給我,還問我病好了沒有。(星巴巴請給這貼心小哥加人工!)
病當然還沒有好,但工作堆積如山,家裡又吵得難以工作,所以星巴巴朝九晚六的日子還是要過。
最近因工作需要,看了BBC紀綠片Where the Wild Men Are with Ben Fogle,其中一集是一名英國金融才俊27歲時毅然辭去工作,到老撾過自給自足的野外生活。主持人問他當年為何有此決定時,他說:“Monday to Friday I dreaded
waking up, I’d get up, I’d get on the tube and I’d look around at all the kind
of ‘grey ghosts’ who’ve lost the will to live and I, well I didn’t look at
them, because you don’t, everyone avoids each other’s eyes and at that point I
started to think I need a change of direction. I think the real epiphany
moment came when I looked around when I was working in the office and looked
around at everyone and I looked at them and everyone’s just typing into their
computer, and I thought I don’t actually see what we’re producing here, all
we’re doing is sending emails, we’re not producing anything of any value here
and at that time, I just thought I’ve never built anything, I’ve never made
anything, I’ve never had that kind of tangible result of something in my hands
and at that point I thought yeah, that’s what I want to do.”
一二三四五六七多勞多得真的很累,但幸好不是打office工,否則應該會Monday to Sunday I dread waking up。
片中印象最深刻的另一幕,是人生只剩最後一天的單身金髮女子,和她那個剛找到另一半的棕髮好友一起去見酒店經理。棕髮好友對金髮女子說:「我真希望你能跟我一樣幸福,找到另一半bla bla bla...」,金髮女子沒等她說完,便給了她一巴掌,並說想看電影。(人生最後的時光與其浪費在這等廢話上,不如看電影吧!)
由於是第二次看,比第一次看時冷靜多了(雖然看到Iron Man每當怒火中燒便要拿別人出氣時還是有點看不過眼)。而且重看了美隊2後再看美隊3,便會對Steve的理念更加了解(美隊3裡著墨不多實在可惜)。Steve在美隊2中不只一次強調「freedom」,Nick Fury向他展示可以全天候監察人民並在恐怖份子行動前把他們擊斃的航母時,Steve說:「By holding a gun at everyone on Earth and calling it protection.」,Nick反指Steve當年做的也不見得全是好事,Steve於是說:「Yeah, we compromised. Sometimes in ways that made us not sleep so well. But we did it so the people could be free. This (指航母) isn't freedom, this is fear.」後來Steve發現神盾局被九頭蛇入侵,呼籲神盾局職員阻止航母升空時也提到freedom:「I know I'm asking a lot. But the price of freedom is high. It always has been. And it's a price I'm willing to pay. And if I'm the only one, then so be it. But I'm willing to bet I'm not.」
再看美隊3,Tony嘗試說服Steve簽署Sokovia Accords時以自己的往事作例:「When I realized my weapons were capable of in the wrong hands, I shut it down; stop manufacturing.」,然後Steve說:「Tony. You CHOSE to do that. If we sign this, we surrender our right to CHOOSE. What if this Panel sends us somewhere we don't think we should go? What if there's somewhere we need to go and they don't let us? We may not be perfect but the safest sands are still our own.」。很多沒弄清楚劇情的人都誤以為Steve是為了Bucky才拒絕簽署,但對「freedom」和「right to choose」的重視才是主因吧。(其實他在片中一度為了保住Bucky的性命而動搖,差點便答應簽了,所以Bucky不是他不簽的原因)
Us Against the World,歌名和歌詞都與美隊3裡面Steve & Bucky的故事發展相當吻合。
Outlaws of Love的歌詞其實沒那麼吻合,但"Everywhere we go, we're looking for the sun. Nowhere to grow old, we're always on the run."這兩句真的很適合Steve & Bucky這對亡命鴛鴦亡命之徒 。這個acoustic版本聽得我雞皮疙瘩,CD版本雖然也很好聽,但我更喜歡這個版本。
上海場的這個版本也很動人:
聽這首歌的時候總想起明哥的《禁色》,後來才知道這首歌的創作背景:
美隊3中的Steve和Bucky是outlaws,但是不是outlaws of love就不得而知了。Marvel賣腐確實很有一手,既能令腐男腐女因為看到基情滿滿而熱血沸騰,亦能令普羅大眾覺得這是一對好基友的熱血故事(雖然現在好像腐的一方才是「大眾」)。不過這部電影人物眾多,Steve和Bucky的內心掙扎都交代不足,所以不少(不腐的)觀眾都覺得難以理解Steve為何不惜為了保護Bucky而與昔日戰友為敵。
And if
nobody ever hears from me again, we’ll be okay. And if nobody ever knows where
I am, I won’t mind. Cuz I’ll know where I am, and that’s the most important
thing.
Video: Eric
Bogosian’s monologue #84 “Highway”, performed by Sebastian Stan, from the solo:
"Wake Up and Smell the Coffee", Jane Street Theater, NYC, 2000, Jo
Bonney director.
因為被洗腦而失去記憶的他,在上一集Captain America: The Winter Soldier裡說過這句經典台詞。(話說漫畫裡Bucky未被洗腦前好像挺愛爆粗,洗腦後雖然變得呆萌沉默,但一開金口便飛來一句「Who the hell is Bucky?」,看來洗腦只令他忘記往事,忘記自己的名字,忘記曾經山盟海誓至死不渝情比金堅的Steve,但沒有忘記Steve曾經要他注意的「language」。)
見過有香港人把這句譯作「邊撚個係Bucky?」,google了一下,發現廣州話粗口研究網也把「邊個」譯作「who the hell」,不過我有點懷疑「邊撚個」跟「who the hell」是否屬於同一級別,感覺上好像「who the fuck」和「邊撚個」比較對應?那麼有甚麼是跟「who
the hell」同一級別?「邊叉個」嗎?腦補了一下「邊叉個係Bucky?」,感覺有點怪怪的。還是「邊鬼個係Bucky?」?但冷血殺手這樣說好像有點太可愛...(其實臉短眼大的Sebastian怎樣說都可愛啦)
由於Winter Soldier在Captain America的第一集沒有出場,所以我只是看了第二集(第一集就只是看了youtube上的All Bucky Barnes scenes)。看後發現Captain America的打鬥場面也挺好看的,相比起Avengers: Age of Ultron那令人目眩的電腦特技,我比較喜歡這樣原始直接的埋身肉搏:
要再看Tom演Loki,就要等到明年上映的Thor系列第三集Thor: Ragnarok,真的等得很心癢~~~由於Thor的故事取材自北歐神話,好奇劇情發展的我決定去看北歐神話中Ragnarok的經過,於是十多年前買的The Encyclopedia of World Mythology終於大派用場!(其實最直接應該是去看Marvel漫畫吧...)
話說在網上找Tom Hiddleston演過的劇集,有人分享了這一套。起初我看片頭完全不見TH的蹤影也覺得奇怪,當時以為他只是打醬油所以片頭沒有他,但越看越不對勁,上網查看後發現,他演過的那套是 Miss Austen Regrets,不是Lost in Austen,分享的人弄錯了...
不過Lost in Austen的開場也挺吸引的,女主角Amanda是Pride and Prejudice小說迷,把這本書看得滾瓜爛熟但依然一看再看,藉著沉醉於書中世界來逃避現實。她的開場白"It is a truth generally acknowledged that
we are all longing to escape. I escape always to my favourite book "Pride
and Prejudice". I've read it so many times now the words just say
themselves in my head and it's like a window opening, it's like I'm actually
there. It's become a place I know so intimately I can see that world, I can
touch it. I can see Darcy."令我想起 The Purple Rose of Cairo。
這種影痴/書迷穿越到片中/書中世界的故事雖然是老掉牙的橋段,但故事發展還是令我挺好奇的。
看了大約三分一集,女主角Amanda便穿越到Pride and Prejudice的書中世界了。而這時候最令人期待的,當然是Pride and Prejudice的男主角Mr Darcy。劇中亦刻意令Darcy遲遲不露面,一直只以背部示人。